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Yeah so freaking awsumness! Check out panic! at the disco's site. There's some new stuff on it. :) http://www.panicatthedisco.com/ lol it helps a bit with the anticipation for their new album.

~Steph

We're singing these lies
Living these stories
Flying with stars
Immersed in fake glory

Oh living in this world of cliche
Get on your knees and pray
That your love won't walk away
Cause here in our world
You're the guy and she's the girl
But she'll leave you in a day
If you can't pay

Let's steal a spot for light to shine
Cheap imitation to live refined

And we're singing these lies
Living these stories
Flying with stars
Immersed in fake glory

But it's the latest style
To hang on his arm and smile
Like every other wife for a while
But when he leaves oh dear don't cry
There's really just no use to try
You made it down the aisle
Now time to crank out that vial

And when at last life you recall
There's really no better than to fall
Get on your knees and crawl
You can't escape it
You can't escape it

Let's steal a spot for light to shine
Cheap imitation to live refined

And we're singing these lies
Living these stories
Flying with stars
Immersed in fake glory

Oh we're dreaming, screaming
These lies
Intensify
These lives we falsify

She walks in everyday
Cursing the life she's made
She's hiding her scars, hoping they fade
But they never really go away

She cries tears alone in the night
"When will things ever be right?"
She's blinded she can't see the light
The story of how she dies

Oh we're dreaming, screaming
These lies
Intensify
These lives we falsify

And when she lays awake in bed
All the thing's going through her head
Are numbers counting tears she's shed
Wishing she could only be dead oh

Oh we're dreaming, screaming
These lies
Intensify
These lives
These lives we falsify

This time around
We're burning under fire
The heat of adolescence
Sparking up our lives a mess
Victims of teenage distress
Woah when will we get to shine?

We're holding onto dreams
Three more years it seems
Till we're flying on the wings
Of change we're anticipating
Singing out confessions
Showing true expression

Oh we're breaking under pressure
Slitting wrists and drinking through the nights
Listening to the adults fight
And they wonder why we cause them fright
Come on, come on
We'll make it through
If only they knew

We're holding onto dreams
Three more years it seems
Till we're flying on the wings
Of change we're anticipating
Singing out confessions
Showing true expression

And we're falling. Falling faster.
Gracing them with suicides
Forgetting how to breathe
Replacing breath with tears
Spitting out these lies
So they don't find out why

We're holding onto dreams
Three more years it seems
Till we're flying on the wings
Of change we're anticipating

Give up! Give up!
(Oh no no no no)
Oh no I'm not giving up
Your words mean nothing to bring me down
Just watch! Just watch!
Someday I will be at the top
You'll be seeing my name all around

You told me no, Oh no
You'll never make it
Not in this world uh uh
You don't have what it takes
But now just look at me
Never where you'll be
Where I stand and where you stand oh
You'll never bring me down

Give up! Give up!
(Oh no no no no)
Oh no I'm not giving up
Your words mean nothing to bring me down
Just watch! Just watch!
Someday I will be at the top
You'll be seeing my name all around

Haha you laughed in my face
But oh who's laughing now?
So now let's pick up the pace
Uh huh
Don't you see that you
Never really
Had all that impact on me
Because in reality
I'm screaming screaming screaming
Oh no no no

Give up! Give up!
(Oh no no no no)
Oh no I'm not giving up
Your words mean nothing to bring me down
Just watch! Just watch!
Someday I will be at the top
You'll be seeing my name all around

You'll never bring me down

haha lawlligaggurrzness.

so i posted my poem like everywhere. i've like made my mark on a whole bunch of buzznet forums. i find it pretty entertaining. oh and all the people that see my stuff everwhere are like mad at me or annoyed by me. and i find it amusing. lol. yea. my main motive? get the word out. and in time i'll have a name for myself. im aspiring to be what i want to be. and when i'm finally a published author and or poet. or if i'm a lyricist to some hot new band. or i don't know. someday i'm just going to flip out even more when i explain my first tactic was to spam buzznet with my poetry XP lol.

~Stephanie

Outside these walls,
Genocide raids the streets
Suicide hangs from her windowsill
A beating in that other house with no one to notice
Meals scraped from the wrapping of trashcans
Hell breaks loose outside these walls.
 
Confined in the safety of ivory boundaries
Doors locked for security
And in no possession shall there be a key
Protected from the world
Sheltered from the truth
Lies unfurled
An act played to fool her
 
Youth seems her friend in the eyes of elders
Maturity too precious for her young hands
Honesty too dear a gift for someone her age
Every minute of ignorance sidled behind,
Reprimanded by more lies uttered
Smothered by "protection" of her blood line
 
Families in crisis
Parents divorced in a peace charade
Mother in another place
Father out to war
Always worrying if he'll ever make it home
Always wondering if mother's okay
A sister who's father is not her own
A sister who's never there
Left in this institution forcibly called "home"
With the enemies of care
Those who hate and neglect the child inside her
 
Never physical, always mental
Pressure to mature but never accepted
Overwhelming loneliness to the girl
The want to go away and never come "home"
To wash away all the bad in a rain storm
Watching through windows as her "family" smiles
Convincing her she's wrong
Telling her she's worthless
Showing her a reflection not her own
She is not the person she was told she is
 
Breathing in the fumes of scorn
Yelling, screaming, a slap in the face
And a child. Alone.
In a blended family with none of her kin
But those of the other merrily sneering at the girl
She's found an opening in her high fences
A release of joy as she's found her sanctuary
A place to hide from the abuse
A place to reveal her true colours
 
And in the time of new glory,
She's shut down
Shot in the heart as she is forced in her asylum
Bleeding out the triumph she held for a short time
A numbing sensation replacing the hurt
She's found her answer
 
Her friends under the impression she's fine
Her letters to her father plastered with false words
Encouraging to the soldier at war
But not when her stepmother writes out her version of "truth"
Not when all those in her household contradict her prose
Oh, but she doesn't cry as her heart turns cold
Realizing nobody's there for her to embrace
She's alone and shards of her heart fall gradually
Toward a meadow of angel hair and baby's breath
 
And when her father returns
As does her mother and sisters
Her "family" removed from her life
All seems fair until the tale continues
And many times over, when the pain seems finished
It returns. Again. and Again. and Again.
The cycle never ending
"It will get better" a promise unfulfilled
Her sister's father abusive and deranged
Her father's wife psychotic and determined
Money scarce living in a land of dignity and wealth
Aware of the life style difference between the two
 
And when her grandfather unlearns her name
And dies of forgetful memories
Her sister forges a new life
One she shouldn't choose
And the girl weeps
She's supposedly hidden from the pain
And yet she feels the stab
She always knows
She hears the whispers in the house
She sees the shadows creeping up the walls
She smells the scent of problematic demons
 
She's too old for games
She's still too young for truth
She knows what she's not permitted to know
Tainted in distress as she can not be trusted
Disappointed in the bonds of blood
She has no ties for she is secluded in her barrier
There's no use for the attempt
To try to break through
She is forever a child
Suffocated in the clutch of excruciating vigil
 
In her years still young
She welcomes death
She does not openly invite death in
But she does not barricade her doors against death's persistent wishes
And when death takes her she will embrace him
For her heart is shattered
And her feelings numb
And even as she feels the way she does
She widens her eyes
Taking in what she can while confined within her walls

Outside these walls,
Genocide raids the streets
Suicide hangs from her windowsill
A beating in that other house with no one to notice
Meals scraped from the wrapping of trashcans
Hell breaks loose outside these walls.

~Stephanie

Oh the addiction beckons me

Let's strike the match

And kindle a fire

Embers like fireflies dancing in the night

Let's forge a love

Lie to ourselves

Put on this play

Of you and me

You be the king, I'll be the Queen

Make up, costumes, a script in the making

Oh the addiction beckons me

Love like a drug

Have a bit and I want more

A longer, stronger dose

But our love's no secret

Because everyone knows

But they're not VIP

Like you and me

Oh the addiction beckons me

Demanding my slurred presense

Love our obsession

How to prove it exists

Thrashing fists and hits

That's the way to go

Lust over love

Because love is an addiction and oh it beckons me

Maybe someday you'll love me like i love you...

I'm petrefied

Everytime I stare in your eyes

My soul is frozen and I realize

You're too far out of reach

Because I'm so lost

To be the one for you

And in finding me

You'll never see

All that I can be

Because I'm pushing you away

Further from myself

Further from who I am

I'm lengthening the distance

And you're forgetting my existence

I'm forcing the resistance

Leaving you to erase me

Before you remember

What we could be

And when I have the fellows falling

Their hearts pouring and fears crawling

It's always their "love" they're calling

Why would you be any different?

Because I'm your friend?

Apparently that's all I ever am

I never thought I'd feel for you

The way I do

But all I say is true

I want to be the love you run to

I wish I could be more

If only for a moment I could call you mine

I've been waiting

Always debating

Whether this lie I'm creating

Is even worth the restraint

If I confessed my feelings

Would I be free?

Could you ever love me too?

All children congregated

Lies manufacturally created

For years to pass we've waited

Yearning to be caught in the crowd

For maturity to be allowed

Naiive of the story

Thinking of the glory

Ignorantly sedated

But put your faith in their hands

They won't let you understand

Why so much of you they demand

Maybe there's hope burried in their guise

Until you realize

You're the substance in their mold

A puppet controlled

Ignorantly sedated

Forge your innocence

At their expense

Don't let them in on your defense

Keep your head low but thinking high

Feed them the lie

Just as they do to you

Let them think your mask is true

Let them be ignorantly sedated

Embrace yourself, a secret charade

A deceiving serenade

But content as the person you made

Shh, remain uncorrupted

Their life lessons disrupted

How angry they would be

If they knew you were free

But don't be frightened

For they'll never be enlightened

always ignorantly sedated

God bless thee, little child.

BURNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!!

Monsters come creeping in the night

Oh how they play with children's fright

Listen to their cackles

As they shake their shackles

Fire erupting from your closet

Ashes under the bed

Precious child, close your eyes

Between your knees, you tuck your head

Oh a nightmare, are you scared?

Never do what you are dared

So careful, so afraid

Eyes glowing in the shade

Shadows stretching across buildings

Demons twisting in strange ways

Little child, come play with us

Whatever comes, always stays

Blood etched into the walls

Slimy beasts in the halls

Fingers moving on their own

With us, you'll never be alone

Turn just around the corner

You'll see us peering

You can't escape us

Our shadows are leering

Close your eyes, count to three

Monsters in your mind will always haunt thee

Disconnect yourself from your fears

Nothing will save you or your falling tears

Out of time, your ripping

Disembodied by your ghosts

So you're being tortured

By these ghastly hosts

Open up your eyes

Safe within these lies

Give unto your nightmare

Remember we're always there

~Stephanie

Does it ever seem
That in all doubt
And in between
Life is just a dream

A nightmare if you will
Keep it real
Do exactly what you feel

Relaxing and Reminiscing
Of the life that you are missing
Of when you were young
And everything was fun
But life had just begun

Now there you sit
Thinking about your life
How you don't want it anymore
Playing with your knife

A cut on the wrist
The break of skin
A line of blood so thin
but think, "hey,
life is not supposed to be this way"

Doesn't matter when you're screaming
No one's listening
No one seems to care
About the tears streaming
From your eyes
Cause no one hears the cries
Stiffled by their ignorance
And arrogance of life

But when you're lying there
Willing yourself to die
Open up your eyes
And look around you at the world
And let the truth unfurl

You don't know the meaning of shit
Until a hurricane hits
Until you've starved yourself to death
You can change your life
Without the sacrifice

Remember when you're lost
You'll find a way to get to that spot
Manuevering through streets
And keeping up with the traffic beats

Same with life I guess
Always making it the best
Discovering new things along the way
To help you not stray
From the goal in your mind
And the loving of day

~Stephanie

Shadows casting glances at me

Paranoia overwhelming my sanity

Fear penetrating my thought

Seeping in and drowning in rot

Voices, voices bouncing off walls

"Oh watch, watch how she falls"

Crowds surrounding, this is my excuse

I'm crazy and suffering mental abuse

Strangers smiling, my friends want to talk

Can't I be alone and go for a walk?

The pressure of air is getting so thick

If I had a choice, this life I'd not pick

The ghost in my mind

whose name I can't find

Assures me I'm safe in his embrace

How I trust the serenity in his face

A figment of my imagination

I'm comfortable with this creation

But when I awake from this dream

Things aren't as they seem

He's gone, or is he?

Because he's not there for them to see

"He's not real"

How am I supposed to feel?

I'm lost and ever glum

Where did he come from?

With you people I don't belong

And what if I'm wrong?

I'm alone, and he's in my head

Existant when I go to bed

It's driving me insane

Can I not laugh and feel no pain?

Demons reeking of past

Can I bury the skeletons at last?

And when life I do crave

They'll pull me down and keep me in my grave

I'll open my eyes and give them a smile

And maybe I can hide the scars for a while...

~Stephanie

hehe so yea writing and music are my life XP

"Welcome to the Stripping Masquerade. Would you like a drink with that lie?"

Welcome to the Stripping Masquerade

Shed all truth and wear your mask

Become a harlequin face

In my Caberet

A fraud in my facade

Clowns all around

In this Circus Act called LIFE

Welcome to the show

Fakers in the midst

A painter painting lies

Colours covering the canvas

Monsieur Ringmaster, crank out the whip

Take control of our train

Parading on your semblance of reality

Welcome to the spectacle

Caricatural faces spinning in the joint

Lights be dimmed

Confused on where you are

Burlesque features taking their hold

We may be the ones with make up

But you are now our fool

Desires raging

Whores and lies surrounding

Take your pick at whichever prize you want

But take a stab at our toll

Grab a drink and join in

Welcome to the Stripping Masquerade